First I have to admit I was a sexually frustrated woman. I’m 54, divorced at 50 with 2 grown children I rarely see or have contact with. My attractiveness to men faded years ago and my only outlet for my sexual desires has been masturbation. I pampered myself by purchasing sex toys with 2 vibrators as my favorites. I live in and now own the house my husband and I bought many years ago in the city. I only have one true friend who I occasionally have dinner with or go to a show. She is the one who suggested I rent a room out to help me financially since I only work 24 to 30 hours a week. I posted an add on Craig’s list and that’s when Dean showed up, April 2017. He was only 19 then and a cute guy but a complete nitwit. He had just gotten a job at the new Wal Mart they built less than a 1/2 mile from my house. I never planned it but began almost immediately taking advantage of this young mans naivety and stupidity. At first my only desire was to see him naked, I presume because it had been many years since I was able to see a mans privates. The first thing I did was destroy the lock on the bathroom door. I began walking in on him knowing he wasn’t dressed and after a few months convinced him it was fine for him to be in his underwear. I also wear revealing nightwear which I am sure by now has little effect for him but makes me feel alive.

He was extremely embarrassed the for the first few months when I did see him naked. I always assured him there was no reason for him to feel that way and that I enjoyed seeing his body. I became so dominant I would go into the bathroom and pee while he was in the shower and he could clearly see me. I more or less explained that if I wasn’t embarrassed why should he be. I believe it took at least 7 months before he was totally at ease with me seeing him naked. The first time I knew I had him excepting my intrusions was when he got an erection while in the shower. He tried to hide it from me the first time but I insisted he turn around and let me see it. He is well endowed and I remember telling him he had nothing to be ashamed of. I had always talked to him about his job and his family but after a few months talked about sex also. I confessed to him about my masturbation and eventually had him tell me he masturbated frequently. He also said he only had sex with a girl 3 times which I think he lied about. He had been here almost a year the first time I jerked him off.

I went in to pee as he showered and after I got up I told him to come close to me and hand me the soap. The shower was on and I rubbed soap in my hands and as soon as I touched his penis I could feel him getting an erection and commenced to having him ejaculate. As I did this I was so aroused I wanted to masturbate myself. The next evening when he came home from work he asked me why I did that for him. I wasn’t sure how to answer that but just told him I had been yearning for male companionship for years and it pleasured me doing it. Then I admitted to him that I masturbated afterwards and it affected me that strongly. This led to the situation we currently have with each other. I jerk him off several times a week and to reciprocate have him satisfy me with my sex toys which he does for me by simply asking him. I still jerk him off in the shower at times but now mostly do it in his or my bedroom. He never asked me to do this but for about a year now I have also been giving him blow jobs. Being naked in front of each other has became outrageous. I am no longer ashamed of my body around him even though I do not have a nice figure anymore. He doesn’t seem to mind seeing me naked and is always willing to satisfy me. I would like to have intercourse with him but that has never happened so far and I have never asked it of him. He does fondle my breasts when he is satisfying me but it was at my request that he do it. I get him to use several sex toys along with the vibrators and since this began I have more intense and frequent orgasms.

Dean just turned 22 last month and its hard to believe how he has changed my life. I know this can’t go on forever but he still doesn’t have a girlfriend that I know of. I ask him sometimes about girls but it seems to me he must be shy with people outside of me. I don’t think he is totally stupid but yet he seems to be naïve and not a very confident person. He does visit his mother a few times a month but from what I gather he and his father don’t get along at all. I know he has an older brother who he never sees and still doesn’t have even a drivers license. He walks to work most of the time but I do drive him when the weather is real bad. He has become dependent on me and I don’t care as long as our present situation continues. I have developed into having a fetish for his penis. There are nights when we watch tv together and I have him sit with me on the sofa, he in his underwear and me in night clothes. I only have to tell him once and only say take off your shorts and he simply obeys. I play with his genitals and more often than not jerk him off. There is never any hesitation and he is now more willing than ever to display his body to me. Since Dean has been living here not a day goes by that I either have him satisfy me or I masturbate myself. What I also enjoy is having him masturbate in front of me. That also embarrassed him the first few time but now he is more than willing when I ask. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I not only like having him satisfy me but I get radically aroused just seeing him naked. Jerking him off and sucking his penis only intensifies my arousals and orgasms. I am aware to of how I have transformed him from a shy introverted guy into a willing recipient of my sexual deviation.