I dated Gavin for a little more than a year, back in 2013/14. I didn’t think much about it at the time and was unconcerned about the photos and videos we took together and of each other. A little over a month ago my male cousin informed me there are several of them on some porn websites. These sites feature photos and videos showing X-Girlfriends. The more I look them up the more of them I find that Gavin had to send. Some show me giving him oral sex licking his testicles, jerking him off and others were of me having many orgasms with dildos that he was using on me. Others had me masturbating with a vibrator or having him do it. I found one where he masturbated using my breasts and ejaculated on my face and neck. My face is shown in all of them yet Gavin only sent videos where he can’t be identified. My cousin has told me other guys I know have seen them and I’m so embarrassed I don’t know what to do about it. Gavin don’t live here anymore and I’m not sure where he is now. I deleted the ones I had a long time ago and remember him promising me he would also get rid of the ones he had. Through my cousin I have now found out that at least 6 guys and 3 or 4 old girlfriends have watched them. The more people who see them the worse it gets because more of them find out about it. I’m just afraid my parents or other family members will find out. I can’t imagine if my present boyfriend ever sees them. I’m 30 years old now and know how stupid I was to ever let a guy video me in such intimate times. Every one that I have found has me completely naked and worst of all exposed in such humiliating positions. Why guys do this I don’t understand. We were never angry with each other when we broke up and I never dreamed he would do something like that to me. I’ve found 9 videos on 2 different sites that are so embarrassing I shake and cry when I watch them. They make me look like some kind of slut or whore. I’m even embarrassed every time I see my cousin and heaven knows how many other people I know have seen them. His friend told him about it and its I guy I knew in high school. I’m shamed for life and can’t do a thing about it.