The affair 2009-2014

Here is a reminder. Yes here is the gist of it, as it all happened, no embellishments, this is what I can remember so you can know what really happened from 2009 to 2014. I know he lies about everything, and says hella stuff about me. Hes such a dope.

I think it was 2009 we started talking online and hit it off I guess. I had just left my abusive husband and moved back to the city, just tryna finish my degree. I think it was maybe 2 weeks later after we started talking he picked me up at my place that I was sharing with my bestie and took me to a burger place down the street. And then it was the next day he picked me up and took me to his work. That is the day he introduced me to a black dude who worked there. I also saw a filipino looking dude who worked there, a few times. He showed me around the old submarine and then we sat in the booth for a while, I remember how it had all these mini ipods and a computer. And then we kissed in the booth. That was the start of it. And then once or twice a week he would come pick me up and drive back to his work and kick it, but over the months he started to stay at my place with me. And we would kick it at my apartment but my bestie/ roommate new something was up with him even before I did. But it was later in the year I got fed up with his attitude and just wanted to end it and I was pissed. So I hella texted him over and over shit cuz I was hella angry and thats when he told me he was married. But by that time I realized I could not walk away from him I said fine I still wanted to do it and he said well lets "keep it on the down low" and I agreed. So we did it all again, and then I moved to daly city to my own place and I just couldnt take it anymore, and I tried to end it by being hella crazy but it didnt work he kept seeing me! But why was I still waiting on him, I had to find someone else who could actually care about me the right way. So I started seeing this other samoan guy and he took me on REAL dates but I just could not leave your husband even though I tried, like I was bound to him. Well that other dude caught on that my mind was with someone else so it kind of fizzled the next year and my dumb ass still waited on him. And mostly he would come over, but he took me too the beach or drove me around, and I do rememeber one time he mentioned wanting to go the big restuarant on the cliffs well I didnt say anything back. and then he also took me to a spot around the small city and we watched the ocean and made out and another day he took me to the other beach and watched the moon, and then we kicked it in the back seat of his ugly ass car. He would text me "babe, is the food ready?" I cooked for for him and what not. When he told me he loved me, I thought well maybe things would change, maybe he would be nicer, respond to me more and just care more about me because every time he walked out my door I got incredibly depressed. I was waiting for him every day and then I would get that one txt that meant he was coming over. So even though he told me he loved me, he did not change his attitude toward me, accept that he made more of an effort to call me "babe". I wanted to end it but couldnt do it, and he new I could not so he new he could treat me however he wanted. And I can remember the last time I saw him before I would be seeing him again in a few years I came to his work, and this is after I got bat-shit crazy on his ass, calling him this and that, texting him endlessly just trying to end it this way. Well we got together at his work and kicked it and then broke the cot in the back room cuz it was too much weight, the both of us. I think that was the last time I saw him and that was december I believe..then I think it was january I found out I was pregnant but had a miscarriage a week later…it was bad times. A few months later I met a NON MARRIED dude and we were together for a year but that ended. And then I met my husband after I had moved back down…and then we got together and yadadada I got married in 2014. I dont know why I contacted your husband, just something in me, the way a compass points northward my heart and mind were drifting to memories of him so I wanted to see him. I messaged him on facebook not thinking he would respond, after all he had blocked my original facebook page after I had confided to you of the affair, originally. So I was not really expecting him to want to see me after everything, but surprisingly he did. When we started talking again I was filled with the heaviest dread and the strangest elation. I was physically shaking, my whole body was shaking, I dont know why. So after small talk for a few days we worked out the details, he gave me an email to contact him with and thats how we worked out the details. That I would be in SF on a certain day and that he would meet me at a hotel that wasnt too far from his work. And for all I knew he just wanted mad revenge, but I took the chance anyways. So he came to see me. I dont know what I was thinking. The past few years had literally put me in the mindset that I should expect every time I see him, to be the last. Well this time was no different. So when he got to the hotel room he asked where he could park his car, I told him to park it in the hotel parking to the right. Seeing him again he obviously had lost hella weight and I thought he looked like a mahu with all that 49ERS/ San Francisco gear but I put my opinions to the back of my mind. So he asked me "are you nervous?" I said no. Well he laid next to me on the bed and yadadadada, same old story. I kept commenting on how he was so small, was he always this small or have I just gotten used to my giant husband? Well, I have no idea why we even saw each other, all the anger was still there. He was obviously still angry at me and I made little comments as revenge to him, so we kicked it, but angrily, aggressively is what im trying to say. He was complaining alot like "why did you tell my wife what we did" and "my marriage is not good anymore" type of things. He apologized for treating me bad, and I said im sorry for what I did. But the idiot should have known to tread lightly, else I go and tell everyone again what he done with me. Fool. I obviously left out the nitty gritty x rated stuff because I have told you before all of it. But I am pretty sure he lies up the wahoo about everything so here is the gist of it, like if you need it for divorce purposes or what not. I 1upped on him because he viewed me as weak, he underestimated me. (things we did: fuck, oral sex, anal playing, nipple biting, cumming in me without protection, fingering, etc. )