In junior high I had my first sexual contact with another boy. He was much more open and advanced than I was and he got me to do everything. I was never comfortable with it.

We went on a school camping trip. It was a school tradition to take the seniors camping in the mountains. We lived in an outdoor world. At the camp I was raped by one of the proctors. It was a full force rape, and sworn to secrecy.

It has been a long time now, decades. But it has not gone away. I relive it. The man is deceased now, but that's no comfort.