My boyfriend and I broke up 11 months ago but I continue living in a loft apartment we rented. I'm 26, have a very good job and usually only go to my office 3 days a week, more often only 2. Since he left I can't explain what or why I've been acting the way I do. I never did this before but a week or so after he moved out I just stay naked unless I have to go out. Even then I rarely wear panties and avoid wearing a bra unless in my office. At first I just began masturbating with my fingers and one vibrator I've had for a year or so. Now I have a total of 3 vibrators, a pink dildo with ticklers and 2 different anal stimulators one of which is a strip of beads. I find myself moaning so loud at times I keep music loud to cover my sounds of arousement and orgasms. Not to sound conceded but I know I'm attractive and have a nice figure and am hit on quite often when I go out. I have become so satisfied with my masturbation I haven't even had a date since my break up. I satisfy myself at least twice a day and am able to have multiple orgasms by stimulation both vaginally and anally. I also started using nipple clips for breast stimulation. As sick as it sounds I orgasm more than I ever did with my X-boyfriend or any of the other 3 guys I had sex with years ago.

I thought nothing else could arouse me anymore than what I was doing. That is, until the night I realize someone was spying on me from the right side window. I'm on the 3rd floor of the building and that window is where the fire escape landing is and it goes to the corner of the building where the steps go down. It wraps around the other side of the building where there are 2 other apartments. This was 7 months ago and took me a week before I realized it was Jeff peeking in. Him and his wife Peggy live on that side of the building. Peggy is a waitress at the dockside bar across the street from my building and I know now she works nights and is off on Sunday and Mondays. I've met and spoke to both of them several times but not actual friends with them. Not knowing how long he had been doing this it somehow stimulated me knowing he certainly has seen me naked but more than likely had watched me masturbate. Instead of being offended or humiliated it was the complete opposite.

I was so overcome with the thought of him seeing me I purposely rearranged my furniture where my lounge chair faced the window he is peeking into. Since then and always at night I always masturbate on the lounge chair. I doubt I have ever exposed myself so boldly even with my X. I have have been shaving my pubic hair for a couple years but never did it on my lounge chair like I've been doing. Jeff comes over almost every night his wife works except Saturdays and always after it is fully dark outside. A few weeks after I found out he was peeping in on me I was so obsessed with him watching me I bought a door bell camera and mounted it on top of the left side window so I could see him outside on my cell phone. This way I could see him while masturbating at the same time. About a month later I saw 2 guys watching and still don't know who that other guy is. I actually watch them looking at me as I have a vibrator in my vagina, the pulsating beads in me anally and my nipple clips on. They probably think I am looking at porn. The 2nd guy comes over once or twice during the week but Jeff is there almost every night during the week unless its raining. When Jeff is alone he jerks off as he peeks in and I shave in front of him once a week. By the time I finish shaving I'm so stimulated I orgasm almost immediately but remain aroused and have several more orgasms realizing he is watching me.

How much more insane can I get? I go shopping or to the mall, wear a skirt or dress with no panties and can't count how many guys I have given a show. I have masturbated in the parking at the mall many times after exposing myself in the mall. I "accidentally" have a button open exposing my breasts or sit on a bench or sit in the food court with my legs apart enough to give guys a sight and arouse myself. Many guys have asked me out but I'm so hung up on my masturbation, exhibitionism and self gratification I don't desire a relationship anytime soon. I know this can't be normal and often wonder if other girls or women feel the way I do. The only time I'm dressed is when I go out and the only time I wear underwear is when I go to my office. When I think about it Jeff and whoever his friend is have seen me like no other guys have. They not only seen me displaying myself in disgraceful poses but have seen and heard me react to continuous frantic orgasms. They have seen me with my legs wide open using a vibrator and on my hands and knees inserting an anal stimulator. They've watched me shave my pubic hair and in other words seen all of me in the most intimate and shameful way possible. Instead of me being embarrassed or at least humiliated I find myself completely stimulated and aroused by it. I do have friends and a small family so the only thing that would be embarrassing to me is if they found out how I have been living and doing these things. Even when I am home working on my computer I'm naked and sleep, cook and eat that way never having the desire to get dressed. Sometimes I think I'm going crazy because at anytime I can feel aroused just by touching myself or holding my breasts. There is nothing more shameful than the way I expose myself to Jeff and the other guy yet I'm euphoric and couldn't be more aroused when it is happening. I don't feel any guilt or remorse doing it and when I do see him outside addictive everyday.occasionally I simply wave or just say hi, never getting into a conversation. Its becomes more

My boyfriend and I broke up 11 months ago but I continue living in a loft apartment we rented. I'm 26, have a very good job and usually only go to my office 3 days a week, more often only 2. Since he left I can't explain what or why I've been acting the way I do. I never did this before but a week or so after he moved out I just stay naked unless I have to go out. Even then I rarely wear panties and avoid wearing a bra unless in my office. At first I just began masturbating with my fingers and one vibrator I've had for a year or so. Now I have a total of 3 vibrators, a pink dildo with ticklers and 2 different anal stimulators one of which is a strip of beads. I find myself moaning so loud at times I keep music loud to cover my sounds of arousement and orgasms. Not to sound conceded but I know I'm attractive and have a nice figure and am hit on quite often when I go out. I have become so satisfied with my masturbation I haven't even had a date since my break up. I satisfy myself at least twice a day and am able to have multiple orgasms by stimulation both vaginally and anally. I also started using nipple clips for breast stimulation. As sick as it sounds I orgasm more than I ever did with my X-boyfriend or any of the other 3 guys I had sex with years ago.

I thought nothing else could arouse me anymore than what I was doing. That is, until the night I realize someone was spying on me from the right side window. I'm on the 3rd floor of the building and that window is where the fire escape landing is and it goes to the corner of the building where the steps go down. It wraps around the other side of the building where there are 2 other apartments. This was 7 months ago and took me a week before I realized it was Jeff peeking in. Him and his wife Peggy live on that side of the building. Peggy is a waitress at the dockside bar across the street from my building and I know now she works nights and is off on Sunday and Mondays. I've met and spoke to both of them several times but not actual friends with them. Not knowing how long he had been doing this it somehow stimulated me knowing he certainly has seen me naked but more than likely had watched me masturbate. Instead of being offended or humiliated it was the complete opposite.

I was so overcome with the thought of him seeing me I purposely rearranged my furniture where my lounge chair faced the window he is peeking into. Since then and always at night I always masturbate on the lounge chair. I doubt I have ever exposed myself so boldly even with my X. I have have been shaving my pubic hair for a couple years but never did it on my lounge chair like I've been doing. Jeff comes over almost every night his wife works except Saturdays and always after it is fully dark outside. A few weeks after I found out he was peeping in on me I was so obsessed with him watching me I bought a door bell camera and mounted it on top of the left side window so I could see him outside on my cell phone. This way I could see him while masturbating at the same time. About a month later I saw 2 guys watching and still don't know who that other guy is. I actually watch them looking at me as I have a vibrator in my vagina, the pulsating beads in me anally and my nipple clips on. They probably think I am looking at porn. The 2nd guy comes over once or twice during the week but Jeff is there almost every night during the week unless its raining. When Jeff is alone he jerks off as he peeks in and I shave in front of him once a week. By the time I finish shaving I'm so stimulated I orgasm almost immediately but remain aroused and have several more orgasms realizing he is watching me.

How much more insane can I get? I go shopping or to the mall, wear a skirt or dress with no panties and can't count how many guys I have given a show. I have masturbated in the parking at the mall many times after exposing myself in the mall. I "accidentally" have a button open exposing my breasts or sit on a bench or sit in the food court with my legs apart enough to give guys a sight and arouse myself. Many guys have asked me out but I'm so hung up on my masturbation, exhibitionism and self gratification I don't desire a relationship anytime soon. I know this can't be normal and often wonder if other girls or women feel the way I do. The only time I'm dressed is when I go out and the only time I wear underwear is when I go to my office. When I think about it Jeff and whoever his friend is have seen me like no other guys have. They not only seen me displaying myself in disgraceful poses but have seen and heard me react to continuous frantic orgasms. They have seen me with my legs wide open using a vibrator and on my hands and knees inserting an anal stimulator. They've watched me shave my pubic hair and in other words seen all of me in the most intimate and shameful way possible. Instead of me being embarrassed or at least humiliated I find myself completely stimulated and aroused by it. I do have friends and a small family so the only thing that would be embarrassing to me is if they found out how I have been living and doing these things. Even when I am home working on my computer I'm naked and sleep, cook and eat that way never having the desire to get dressed. Sometimes I think I'm going crazy because at anytime I can feel aroused just by touching myself or holding my breasts. There is nothing more shameful than the way I expose myself to Jeff and the other guy yet I'm euphoric and couldn't be more aroused when it is happening. I don't feel any guilt or remorse doing it and when I do see him outside addictive everyday.occasionally I simply wave or just say hi, never getting into a conversation. Its becomes more